Flash Fiction: The wooden spoon that left a scar

The wooden spoon that left a scar

The wooden spoon has its many uses.

Grandma used it to stir the pot as the sweet savoury smell of her brown stew wafted into the hallway.

After a hearty meal I was always waiting for the unknown. This caused all my childhood anxiety.

Grandma’s mood – now dark. I winced as the wooden spoon landed on my bare buttocks, smack after smack. Five strikes per cheek.

I couldn’t sit down.

My schoolteachers found out and I ended up in care. Thus began my downward spiral.

The wooden spoon left more than a scar. I panic each time I see one.

Why I wrote this

Last year, I did a short story writing course and each week we were assigned writing homework. One of those weeks we were asked to write a one hundred word story.

I thought long and hard about what to write about and then the image of a wooden spoon flashed through my mind. I thought about food and its importance in one’s childhood.

Most children look back at their childhood with fondness. But what about those who don’t?

‘My schoolteachers found out and I ended up in care. It was very unpleasant.’

I also thought about the care system and how messed up and unpleasant it can be. Most kids who go into care are really scarred from that experience.

As I sat on a train ride home, I started to jot down the title. Subsequently, the words started to flow, then it turned dark.

Dark stories are intriguing. Dark stories with a truth of some kind that urges one to think long and hard about life choices are ones I have found the most interesting.

The characters

‘Grandma’s mood – now dark’

I envisioned the Grandma to be seen as an unstable character.

‘After a hearty meal I was always waiting for the unknown. This caused all my childhood anxiety.’

I pictured a boy young boy standing in the hallway and taking in the smell of the brown stew but scared to go into the kitchen.

What next for the boy in the wooden spoon story:

As part of the writing course, I had to continue to dig a little deeper into the characters from my one hundred word story.

Years later, the boy is now a man. His name is Kunle.

He couldn’t sleep. It had happened again.

Right there, in their favourite restaurant, he’d had a panic attack. He had lay on the floor and lost control.

A small crowd had formed around the table where he had sat with his girlfriend.

Thankfully, a man with strong arms had gently pulled him up and shooed everyone away. He had pulled up a chair and sat down with him until the panic attack subsided.

But that last incident wasn’t what was keeping him awake.  His girlfriend had booked him a therapy session and his first meeting was going to take place in the morning. As he lay awake at two in the morning,  he contemplated cancelling it.

Later on, as he sat in the therapist’s office, he wondered if he looked as tired as he felt.

“So, did it take you long to get here? I hope you didn’t have a hard time trying to find our office,” said the therapist. She was a petite woman with a kind face, who looked to be in her mid to late thirties. 

‘It didn’t take long.’ He had slept on the train but not before asking the kind stranger that sat next to him to wake him up in five stops. The stranger had tapped him a stop before, just to make sure he was up in time.

“My name is Jane and I’ve been a therapist for about 8 years,” she said with a beaming smile that had to be exaggerated. No one that listened to other people’s problems for living was bound to be that happy and so early in the morning too.

“My name is Kunle.” He smiled nervously and shook her hand.

“So, what brings you here?” she smiled again, this time displaying lipstick stained teeth.

“My girlfriend booked me this therapy session because I have a lot of panic attacks.  I had a long night and I was very worried about this session.”

Eek had he said too much? Perhaps it was the lipstick stained teeth. Something about an imperfect therapist made him feel at ease.

She smiled.  “That’s okay, most people find therapy sessions to be daunting until they actually go to one.  I can assure you that this space is a safe one.  I won’t force you to talk about anything you are not comfortable with.”

“Okay. Thank you for assuring me.” He looked around the room. It was clean, almost bare apart from the table that was cluttered with several self-help books. Right on top of the messy pile was a book called: How to be yourself.

Self help books are so bogus. Why would anyone need help being themselves. Did she read those books for herself. Could it be that even a therapist of eight years could have an identity crisis?

“So, how long have you been having these panic attacks?”

“Before I answer that, I’ve noticed that you like to take notes and I want to make sure that anything we discuss in this room stays between us and that you won’t write a book about me or something.”

Her eyes widened for a moment and she took a short pause. “Umm, I take it that this is the sort of thing that kept you up all night.” She turned and put the offending notepad on the messy table behind her. “Not to worry, I can assure you that those notes are not even going to be worth me making a book out of.”

He gave a half smile “hmm.” He still wasn’t convinced.

“Besides, those notes are for me to know how I can help you,” Her voice was firm with a slight tremor to it. She coughed and cleared her throat. “Sorry, I seem to have caught a cold.”

“Okay then.”

“Why don’t you start by listing all the things that makes you happy.” She smiled again and he looked away.

“Um. I don’t have a list per say… but my girlfriend makes me happy.  She truly is the only person in my life that has looked out for me,” He muttered with a faraway look in his eyes.

“Hmm.” She leaned back into the chair until it made an loud and irritating creaking sound.

“She just wants me to get to the root of my panic attacks.”

“Okay, let’s review that for a moment.” She reached back to her desk, grabbed the notebook and started to jot down.

“I know what is causing the attacks but I think you may find it strange. I have had them for as long as I can remember.”


“It’s a wooden spoon. I panic every time I see one. I am here because I was told you could help me with coping strategies.”

“Do you think you could dig a little deeper to understand why the wooden spoon causes such a reaction?”

He closed his eyes and clenched his fists.

“My Grandma used to beat me with a wooden spoon, almost everyday when I was a kid. I don’t blame her because I know she wasn’t alright, but here I am today still trying to find a way to deal with it!”

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7 thoughts on “Flash Fiction: The wooden spoon that left a scar

  1. The fact that Kunle knows why he panics whenever he sees a wooden spoon is a step to healing. Just goes to show how much our childhood memories affect out outlook on life. One question though: how many of those memories are we aware of?

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